There are times I wanna give up
But there is something that never let me stop
No matter how much tired I may be
No matter how much rejection I may recieve
No matter how much critics I may overcome
I’m drawn like a magnet to a steel
To make my life vision real
For creating my reality I don’t have deadlines
I have my own given signs
That’s when you know that you are part of a bigger plan where you should do all you can
And than let the Universe/God/Whatever higher being you believe in
To step in
They will throw dirt in your name
Because they don’t believe that God has the ultimate game
Little do they know that like God turned a stick into a snake and back
It can turn the dirt into gold and from gold into wack
Wait till the tables turn
Everyone will get the justice that they earn
Everything will fall, some will break, some will make a noise….
And some will fall softly into the ground
Without making a disturbing sound
The power of Him in your heart flows
‘Cuz you are God’s beautiful Rose🥀
And when all her prayers where answered
She understood why she had to wait so long
When she hit obstacle after obstacle
She understood what she was doing wrong
When she couldn’t find light in all that run
She became the whole sun☀️
Your origin, your skin colour, your physical apperance, your age,
Everything outside of you is used as a barrier to limitate you. A barrier that limitates and try to vanish your happiness, by letting you focus on destructive competiton and taking.
Everything that looks fixed, like it goes with a recognizable flow it’s a lock put in you, so you can’t reach your full potential. A barrier that gives
you confusion because you choose to be controled and be stuck in other people’s world.
The world outside of you interference badly with the world inside of you, letting it undeveloped due to external causes. The guilt doesn’t belong to society but to you. Focusing too much on something you can’t control is self-destruction.
Why to be stubborn on some things you know that aren’t worth your focus.
Your focus should be in building your inner world, spending time alone to reflect what you want and what you don’t want.
Your focus should be in progress, in the ride not only in the place that you want the ride to take you.
Your focus should be in gratitude and giving to others.
Your focus should be kindness.
Your focus should be you.
Other’s advice are shit compared to your inner voice because they can’t see with your eyes even if you ripped them off and give it to them.(my beautiful hazel eyes)
But how to unlock your true potential if you don’t know what you want? Not everyone has the same dreams and everyone has their own ways.
By creating a duality and unity at the same time. Visualizing yourself as how you want to be…
And then reflect on who you are.
Now unite them together and come to a conclusion. What does it take for me to go there and what should I kill from my last version to enjoy the new version?
It’s hard and painful sometimes because you have to kill something in you that you think that can’t be killed.
That’s illusion, you can choose to experience a full metamorphosis and not reincarnate again.
And you have to cut off people that weren’t never with you just masked that way by your emotions.
Emotions are meant to be felt but not to be a controller.
By juggling what you think feel and want you create a balance, that gives you a full package of mental, spiritual and material world in a way that makes you feel complete.
I’m not a big fan of Sigmund Freud but that shadow strategy is useful. It’s like waking up both devil and angel in you and integrating them into society for your own good and growth. If Napoleon Hill for example classifies everything negative as a Devil and everything positive as God
adding them together you have the whole universe and beyond. All the unkown world. And a part of universe are also you.
Also here we have a barrier. Jugding the negative energy as something that is always bad and the positive energy as always good.
For example you always give and don’t accept to take from people. You find it hard to say no. You wanna help everyone even if they don’t deserve it.
Someone has not studied as much as you and begs you to help them to pass and you do. They win the school, you help them also to find a job without having them to worry at all, cuz you are people pleaser motherfucker.
To the point now – you made them dependent on other people, you didn’t let them learn the lesson through consequences, you became their barrier that didn’t let them to grow and to find theirself. You made them feel like there’s no way they could do it by themselves, you fed their doubts.
Look how bad you are now.
Reverse
Now someone ask you to find them a job even thought there aren’t good at it. The boss is your cousin so why not to help a friend in need. By telling them to fuck off and work in themselves in order to find the job that there are good at and that they enjoy.
Others may say this is so out of you
because it is the shadow inside of you that comes to light. They don’t see it but you have it for one reason.
The reason isn’t to repressed it but to use it in the most convenient way for you.
(Nobody is asking me to find them a job it’s just for ilustrating)
I was and am that type of person that when I’m sad or frustated with people
I fight when I see it convenient and when I don’t.. I take all of that in me.
Not being sad or frustated but motivated to level up to do something good for myself by exercising, writing, meditating or helping someone. Look how little you are, everything that you throw to cause me bad I’m using it to build myself. ‘Cuz like the Rome we are built from ashes.
Did the unstable standards of society
become the gendarmes of humanity ?
Did the Society that accepts diversity made you doubt the reality?
Did they label you as someone since you couldn’t adapt with anyone ?
“Did the deserts quote Darwin or
for knowledge weren’t so keen?”
Tell me if you felt like a outcast from the positivite side that you take from a negative ride ?
Did they look at you with confusion when you told them that art is the true revolution?
Did they reject any prejudice too when they could benefit from you?
Did they supported the majority because they did not have the courage to risk for minority?
For you did it bothers that their opinion is controlled by others?
Did you feel optimistic when they marked your ambitions as unrealistic?
….Did you feel rebellious when others determined the course of life according to their vision?
Did you feel offended when as an experiment they tried to analyze you
or did you enjoy that in the process they were confused?
Have they taken you aside under the pretext of talking because you have insulted their lies with verses?
Have you been judged that such a young age has no ability to think?
So this is my distorted reality with the hope to be understood I continue to feel rebellious ……….
Freedom to be
The authentic version of me
Freedom to act in my own way
Freedom even as an outcast to stay
Freedom to fight for the life I want
Freedom to listen to my voice
When everyone try to imponate me their choice
Freedom to be misunderstood and to forgive
Even thought an apologise I did’t receive
Freedom to grow from the intesity of my spirit flow
Freedom to write without a soul censure
To let my higher self extensure
So I can experience a new soul adventure 🌱
I have taken happiness and sadness inside of me
Fueled with portions of angels and devils energy
I have burst in tears masked as a irrational laugh
Cuz it is Better to look crazy than not tough
Too much pressure to adapt to something that you are not
Too much barriers in my mind
Making excuses of all kind
Triggered by the anxiety inside
I have put my heart in a heavy cloud
making it even harder to pump blood
But in the end
There were messages from the universe sent..
A message to learn
So new abilities I could earn
A healing process filled with pain and fears
From the spiritual journey
Leaving me to shed happy tears
Cuz I didn’t just survive
but the life I wanted
I was able to provide.
The worst form of depression is the
one that comes with the biggest smile
The one that comes with a bright face and shiny eyes
The one that comes with hard work
and ambition
The one that comes with progression and change
All this fasade is needed, just to distract yourself and others around you
‘Cuz in the end who will understand?!
They will name you ungrateful
For all the things you have
but would they know, all you wanted
was a hug, a kind word, something to warm your soul…
But all you got were definitions, misunderstandings and another lock to put on yourself…
Nothing would be neglect
Every dot will eventually connect
You may bend but you’ll never break
Cuz there is something in you they cannot take
And that is courage and pride to destroy every cell of doubt inside
And to live like a whole different creature
With their own authentic spiritual feature
To reborn yourself again is a different kind of pain
You need ego in your life
So you can be guided by your pride
Because without it
You feel weak and in defeat
You need people’s opinions and limitations too
Because without them who are you?
Ego makes you seem tough and carefree but deep inside…
you know that from yourself you can’t hide
The ultimate goal is to be happy, not to wear a mask
thinking you’re fooling everyone
cuz this life is yours, others are just visitors.
